Under a serious moment to myself on contemplating my life I've come to a realization. I need to try to be more stress free and at the same time serious with my goals. It's not like I was before, but it's like ever path I take seems to be block with a obstacle that I surely can not move on my own.

Now I know times are tough on us today, what with the economy and all but that still doesn't mean it's impossible to do. I've come to notice that I'm developing some actions like my father and that is something I really want to strive away from.

I have to be more 'active' and ' positive' about what I want in life. Is it good enough for me and can I take the extra step? Deep down an inner conflict is trying to reason out the 'can do's' and the 'can not'. And I notice my mind wants the 'NOT' then the 'DO'. We can't have that, can we? That is way I think I might start my gallery over.


That is right, I'm going to be erasing the previous pictures that I have posted in my gallery. I just look at them and see no change in progress unlike the pieces at school that clearly show how I have changed. That also means that I'm going to have to push for finding at job at this time (before I tried, but clearly 'sorry, we already have associates/help' is all I'm getting). So I need to do my best, no matter what! Starting now.....


Wish me luck!